drained

I've been reading this book by Anne Lamott, and I'm totally loving it. It's got a delicate balance of crude, insightful, and inspirational... which is just what I've needed lately. I was reading this afternoon (basically stalling on the homework that I don't want to finish) and came across a passage that completely summarizes my feelings lately:

"I'm feeling stressed to the nu-nu's today, very tired and unable to keep our house and our life together... I opened the fridge to make us some lunch and could instantly tell that something was suffering in there, but I did not have the psychic energy to deal with it. I don't think I will tomorrow, either. I think the easiest thing would just be to move."

I can't pinpoint what's exhausting me right now, but it's draining everything. I feel a little like I'm going through the motions of things, with occasional bursts of energy to make dinner or play on the floor with my babies. I'm hoping things can right themselves soon; I'm getting pretty tired of feeling so tired.

I haven't been posting much on this blog, but I'm trying to stay active here and here. (I have milestone updates going up tomorrow as well...fyi) I've had a few people mention that they don't have (but want) access to the kiddos' blogs, but I need email addresses to grant it. So, if you're one of those people... email me :-) bethany.bowers@gmail.com